Living Out Today!

GOOD NEWS!
I'm really happy for I. She's 8 weeks pregnant and baby's healthy! This has been something that she has prayed about for a long time. Our God is faithful. It's nice to have a close friend walk through this season with you. I appreciate her prayers and friendship.

ANXIETY?
As I hear the news of her healthy pregnancy, I can't help but feel anxious about what's happening to mine. Will the HCG level shoot up to a healthy level tomorrow? Will I see this pregnancy to full-term? Will there be complications? Will I be happy for just a moment and be left to deal with the sadness that follows?

MY PRAYER
God, I don't want all these worries. Your Word teaches us not to worry about tomorrow. So Lord, I'll let tomorrow worry for itself. I choose to completely, wholly submit this pregnancy to you 100%. Not just 50% to you and 50% to the doctors, but 100% to you, because I acknowledge that you alone, are the giver and creator of life. You alone are the healer. You alone holds my life in your hands. You alone are my protector. You alone are my Lord, and Savior. So take it all Lord.

You said that if we pray according to your will, you will hear us and answer us. I pray Lord that you hear my heart's desire and bless us with healthy, whole, complete children, a pregnancy that will be carried to full-term with no complications. It is your will to bless us with children. It is your will for us to be fruitful and multiply. So be it Lord, let Your will be done unto my life.

MY DECISION
Most people dwell in the past, worry about tomorrow and suffer through the now. That's what I've been doing. Dwelling in the past report result. Worry about the test result tomorrow. Therefore I am literally suffering now, because I had been so unsettled. This can't be it. I don't want to go through my pregnancy this way.

I want to learn from our past, live in the now and look forward to our tomorrow. There are reports of low HCGs to lead to healthy full-term deliveries. Right now, I'm pregnant and I want to rejoice and bask in this good news. I'll look forward to the positive result that will put my mind at ease tomorrow! Yes. This is the way I want and I choose to live!

What is your choice? How do you decide to live your life today?