What is FAITH?

Hebrews 11:1

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (KJV)

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (NIV)

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see. (NLT)

My description of faith?

Simply believing and acting as though it is even though it is not.

My first pregnacy test taken on 22 Dec showed a bfp (a forum term meaning "big fat positive"). I was overjoyed, relieved, thankful.

Yesterday, we went to the clinic to get a blood test to confirm. Yes, I am indeed pregnant. My world sank when the nurse told me "But your HCG level is way to low. It is only 105.3. A normal HCG should be around 250." So what did all these number means?

To sum it up, I'm on medication to "support" the pregnancy. If the second blood test shoots up to 400 - 500, this pregnancy is viable. If not... it'll likely end up in a miscarriage. 

My entired understanding and practice of FAITH burst into pieces that afternoon. But you know what, all I needed was a mustard seed faith. Even if it's just one tiny piece, that'll do, God will do the rest.

So Lord, just one tiny bit left. Take it all. I choose to trust in you. No more sad reports to people. No more endless googling on the internet about low HCG levels. 

I choose to trust in You, pray and rest in Your presence.